My Path

The sadness is engulfing me.

The walls are closing in on me.

Sadness and hurt permeating the air around me.

Choking me with their intensity until I'm on my knees.

No sounds to be heard other than my cries.

As the pain seeps into my veins bursting through my skin,

Tears of blood run all over me.

I'm on an never-ending path.

Just me alone, loneliness in this dark and desolate place.

No light is ever seen, no happiness left.

All there is, is the dark path in front of me with walls that close in on me.

And pain and sadness in the air engulfing my very being.

I say OK because

I'm not OK.

Wishing Star

Star light, star bright
First star I see tonight,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
Have the wish I wish tonight.

I gazed upon an November night's sky

I picked the brightest star I could see

I thought about what I wanted

I thought about my wish I realized

I made my wish that night


I wish I could - I wish I could

Zest

Trying to break the subconscious thought patterns,

(that have developed in my mind)

Confession brings to my conscious mind destructive thought patterns,

Repentance helps me renounce them,

Proclamation and prayer help me to embrace the healing,

Breaking out of the vicious cycle of an achievement-oriented lifestyle.

Not to repress the need for it that I hope to achieve shalom.

Just to hold YOU tight in my arms.

The Centre

I imagine that I have walked into a desert place.
I spend some time exploring the surroundings,
then settle down to contemplate my life.

I see how frequently I rush outside myself
to people, occupations, places, things
in search of strength and peace and meaning,
forgetting the source of all
is here within my heart.
It is here that I must search.

Each person carries thoughts
that have the power to bring instant peace.
I search for mine.

I also search for the thoughts
that help me face life's challenges
with fortitude and courage.

What are the thoughts that make me warm and gentle,
that exorcise the emotion in my heart?
What thoughts put meaning in my life?
produce contentment?
give joy?
propel me into service?

Before I leave the desert
I recall the existence of another source within
that does not need the aid of thoughts
to give me all I need.

I make an indirect attempt to reach it
by imagining a cave within my heart
suffused with light.
The light invades my body as I enter.
I can feel its rays create and energise
and warm and heal.
So I sit within the cave in silent adoration
as the light seeps in through every pore.


Forever Lingers In My Mind.

Broken Arrow

Today (SAD+TIRED)

I slept at 6am today.
I have no idea what am I doing.
crazy? Perhaps.
I'm just actually waiting and staring at my phone.
Why?
SOMETHING. =)
I just can't sleep.
Staring, Staring, and Staring.
Dreaming, Dreaming and Dreaming.
Thinking, Thinking and Thinking.
There goes my day. =(

Woke up at 10am, if I'm not mistaken.
Then, play badminton from 12pm till 3pm.
It's holy crap.
I hurt myself here and there.
I've no idea how and why.
Perhaps, YOU control everything in my life.

YOU
YOU
YOU
There's nothing else I can say.

Sunshine

Apple Tart.
I made it myself.
It's for YOU. =)

Try as I may I can never explain.
YOU brighten up my day.
YOU filled up my minds.
YOU are the reason.

Irreconcilable Viewpoints

It's now the second week of the second semester.
Yet, I'm still thinking about some THINGS.
It's seriously driving me crazy.
Being Jealous about Numerical Numbers?
LOL. What am I talking about?
But, it's a YES.

-Signing off-


For all the reasons that I've found,
YOU are the one that heals.
I can't get my eyes off YOU.
Perhaps, I've instilled the YOU in my minds.

I dreamt about YOU.